sometimes, i feel that it would be nice if we just start on a clean slate again.
but we tried that years ago.. and i dunno. It's like harboring feelings and there's this risk of bursting this little bubble in the future..
anyway.. there are times when i want things (us) to be okay.. but i know it won't be that easy. a lot of boundaries have been crossed, and sadly, putting things back to how it used to be is like surrounding something/some place with barbed wires. you know you're protected but once you touch some parts, it'll hurt like hell. :|
sometimes i really wish i could press rewind..
but some other times, i think things are better this way.
coz a lot of stuff still hurt me you know. :|