..when every time i try to reach out
no one seems to hold my hand

and then i will choose to hold back again,
rather than knowing that no one will be there

it kindov sucks

will there be someone out there?

you see i wish someone would be there to
ask me how my day went
tell me life's okay
share things that happened to that someone
listen to my neverending rants or raves (more often than not, RANTS)
be there for me
choose to tell me things about that someone's day for example

but i can never seem to find that someone
and i can never be that someone to anyone

am i too selfish?
if only i can NOT share someone with everyone else
it would be perfect

but i guess that's being selfish

so i guess i'd rather not

i just feel so alone
and it SUCKS
not just kindov but REALLY

im not making sense
i might just sleep while sitting on the floor
and crying the f*ck out of me

and IT SUCKS

NO ONE TO TURN TO SUCKS
no one to understand you sucks


and i wish no one will ever have to feel this way

so now can you kill me?
i will pay you later









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Edited: 2.22 AM

unappreciative or unappreciated?
choice or circumstance?

AM I NOT THE WORST FRIEND THERE IS IN THE WORLD?

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME SLEEP







i hate you *points at self*