..when every time i try to reach out
no one seems to hold my hand
and then i will choose to hold back again,
rather than knowing that no one will be there
it kindov sucks
will there be someone out there?
you see i wish someone would be there to
ask me how my day went
tell me life's okay
share things that happened to that someone
listen to my neverending rants or raves (more often than not, RANTS)
be there for me
choose to tell me things about that someone's day for example
but i can never seem to find that someone
and i can never be that someone to anyone
am i too selfish?
if only i can NOT share someone with everyone else
it would be perfect
but i guess that's being selfish
so i guess i'd rather not
i just feel so alone
and it SUCKS
not just kindov but REALLY
im not making sense
i might just sleep while sitting on the floor
and crying the f*ck out of me
and IT SUCKS
NO ONE TO TURN TO SUCKS
no one to understand you sucks
and i wish no one will ever have to feel this way
so now can you kill me?
i will pay you later
Edited: 2.22 AM
unappreciative or unappreciated?
choice or circumstance?
AM I NOT THE WORST FRIEND THERE IS IN THE WORLD?
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME SLEEP
i hate you *points at self*