gusto kong tulungan ka
gusto kong intindihin ka
gusto kong intindihin mo ko
gusto ko maging masaya ka
gusto ko matahimik ka
gusto ko matanggap mo yung katotohanan
gusto ko na hindi ka na ganyan
gusto ko hindi ka na malungkot
gusto ko sabihin sayo yun mga bagay na gusto mo marinig
gusto kong tumulong
gusto kong mag-reach out
gusto kong marealize mo na what you're going through is just a phase
gusto kong marealize mo na you're not worth everything you're putting yourself through right now
gusto kong makita mo na you deserve better
gusto kong maging kaibigan mo
gusto kong takbuhan mo ko
gusto kong pakinggan mo ko
gusto kong intindihin ka
gusto ko maging masaya ka kasi
gusto kong ma-accept mo na you have to move on
gusto kong mahalin mo sarili mo
gusto kong maging masaya ka ulit
gusto kong mag-move on ka
gusto kong maging masaya ka

gusto ko bumalik IKAW. kasi alam ko you're better than that. alam ko yun

ngayon kung pwdeng yung luha ko ngayon na hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit tumutulo, maging effort para makatulong ako to ease your pain, gagawin ko. pero wala.

maraming nagmamahal sayo. alam mo yun. sana marealize mo yun. minsan naiinggit ako sayo na marami kang matatakbuhan. maraming nakikinig sayo. marami kang kakampi. mahal ka namin lahat. sana makita mo yun. alam ko naman nakikita mo yun, yun ang sasabihin mo. pero alam mo yun. maraming nagmamahal sayo

hindi mo kailangan ng mga taong hindi ka kailangan sa buhay nila.

gusto kitang makitang masaya. alam kong it will take time. i always say that.
pero sana.. sana talaga panghawakan mo lahat ng suportang binibigay sayo ng iba. some people don't have/didn't have that chance to get support from people in this situation you're in. mahal ka namin. siguro nga mahal ka pa niya. pero...kung hindi na masaya diba?

kaso hindi ko talaga mabibigay yung sagot sayo. hindi ko alam kung dapat ba maging pranka sayo or be gentle para hindi ka masaktan.

basta ang alam ko YOU'RE BETTER THAN THIS. HINDI KA GANYAN KAHINA.

i want you to be happy. para hindi na rin ako iiyak.

although the weather is kinda bad (define bad for others) lately, for me it felt quite refreshing. my sister and i decided to shower in the rain (well.. that's shower, sing, dance, model, etc.) ^_^ it was nice. it brought be back to childhood memories... when life really used to be carefree and stuff.

earlier, i decided to cook some pasta. i just copied some ingredients from the net but i did the recipe my way. you see, i usually cook but i don't have an exact recipe (like measurement, number of cups or whatever) to use. somehow it just happens. :))

so for my spicy tuna pasta i used: 2 cans of Century Tuna light (Hot and Spicy), 2 packs Clara Ole spaghetti sauce in Three-Cheese and Onion & Garlic, onion, garlic, 1 chicken cube, hot sauce, tomato catsup, oregano, pepper, salt

Anyway, it was good. my sister liked it ^_^ I used vegeroni as pasta (healthy much?)

So after lunch we decided to go and play in the rain, took a shower... then i noticed that my hair somehow regained it's curliness. i don't know why. :) then when i went up to my room, there were no curtains, and it was really bright (well you could just see what's outside)... much to my surprise, it was really refreshing! it was relaxing.. *sigh*

anyway, just want to say.. there's a rainbow always after the rain. ^_^

i just know there is.
hope to find it soon.

i really really wanna rant and i don't know how when where to start
naiirita ako sayo matagal na! demmit. random nga eh.

anyway, stop reading this kung magiging feeling ka lang. ok? coz i wont really shut up anytime soon. this is my blog after all. if you want gawa ka din ng sayo para masaya tayo lahat diba? RANDOOOM, SWEAR. naisip ko lang :))

tapos sobrang panget ng mood ko lately. well. hindi ko alam kung bakit tlga. but ohwell.

frustrated lang tlga ko. tapos nakikisali ka pa. ikaw. kayo. tayo. tayong lahat, magkakapatid.

tapos i miss my friends. tapos i need a vacation. i miss long talks. i miss malling. i misssssss. :(

hay.

tapos.... hindi ko maalala yun ending ko sa blog na to. inaantok na kasi ako!

means HUGS and KISSES

well, normally it does.

I used to give you hugs. (past)
She still gives you kisses. (past and present)

Now XOXO means Gossip Girl's here.


RANDOOOOOOM.

when you ask me, "how are you?"

i'll say.. "so-so, nothing interesting"

coz it's the truth. there's nothing interesting happening you see.

i usually suck like that.

1. You're irritating cause you like the chase. Well, particularly, you like ME chasing YOU. and it sucks!
2. You're irritating cause you drop way too many hints! Who cares about that stupid stuff anyway? If you're not gonna spill, might as well shut up. Wait for you stupid right time. Geez.
3. You're irritating cause I'm jealous of you.
4. You're irritating cause you completely forgot about today. Sucker.

i just realized i have way too many unfinished businesses. as in, make it plural.

probably, i make myself avoid those situations when i have to deal with them. or find excuses or reasons so i can put them off. or something. maybe i'm scared of the outcome.. i'm afraid that relationships will change. maybe i'm not sure how or why i should finish them in the first place.

but one thing's for sure..

ironic, but it's just that I DON'T KNOW HOW TO START ENDING THEM.

demmit.

I should be stronger this, you know.

I should and I DON'T WANT TO BE A PERSON WHO NEEDS HELP.

But I...

...feel all alone. :(



-Peyton Sawyer,
One Tree Hill



got this from toj, thanks.
and i just reposted this from my multiply blog.

sumpong-sumpong.
sumasakto lang.