the bittersweetwistedangel princess & temporarysuperstar diva strikes back. right back at ya. ^^ ♥

contradiction

Sunday, April 27

i wish you guys can reach out. try. even a little.

but i'm afraid that if you try to reach out, i'd just drive you away.

coz maybe it's too late to reach out.

but i feel bad when i'm alone and no one cares like that

i know you have problems too

but maybe...

maybe

nobody cares.

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 23:47.
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temptation island

Tuesday, April 22

i'm almost tempted to say i miss you.

too bad, you suck.

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 22:15.
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when the past continuously comes back

Saturday, April 19

i got another round of conversation with personfromthepast the other night. personfromthepast made papansin again and asked me how come i wasn't replying to text messages. then i thought, there are not much text messages to begin with.

so i said, no i wasn't busy. so how are you?

personfromthepast says, not much. hey, if i go to ortigas on monday... let's meet up. ok? is that okay with you?

of course, NOT. i immediately texted my best friend about it. OMG EVERYTHING FROM MY PAST IS HAUNTING ME RIGHT ABOUT NOW.

but, that little itsy bitsy part of me that wanted to see personfromthepast REPLIED... OKAY! SEE YOU MONDAY. JUST LET ME KNOW.

demmit.

high hopes high expectations.

then an hour ago personfromthepast texted again: HEY, im sorry i can't make it on monday. promise i didnt know. i'll text you when i'll be free.

AM I THE ONE TO WAIT?
SHOULDN'T I BE A "LADY IN WAITING"?

okay, stop.

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 11:55.
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LAGI NA LANG AKO

Thursday, April 17

lagi na lang ako yung mali
lagi na lang ako yung may dapat baguhin
lagi na lang ako yung may kahati
lagi na lang ako yung kino-compare kung kanino
lagi na lang ako yung pinipintasan
lagi na lang ako yung humihingi ng atensyon
lagi na lang ako yung 2nd choice
lagi na lang ako yung hindi maganda
lagi na lang ako yung hindi okay
lagi na lang ako yung walang kwenta
lagi na lang ako yung may flaws
lagi na lang ako yung other option
lagi na lang ako yung iniiwan
lagi na lang ako yung nsa category na "just friends"
lagi na lang ako yung hindi nakikita ng taong gusto kong mapansin ako
lagi na lang ako yung hindi maka-please
lagi na lang ako yung third wheel
lagi na lang ako yung bitter
lagi na lang ako yung walang kwenta
lagi na lang ako yung huli
lagi na lang ako yung last to know
lagi na lang ako yung second or probably "last" best
lagi na lang ako

oo na, siguro useless ako.

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 11:35.
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Think it OVER.

Tuesday, April 15

Think it OVER.

Simply put, I'M DEFINITELY OVER YOU.

Thing is,

I'm not over HOW HURT I FELT when I CARED FOR YOU.

I still get hurt on a regular basis. Actually, it depends.

and that sucks.

Crying over that SUCKS.

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 17:07.
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PRAYERS NEEDED

Friday, April 11

right now i ask for help, please please please pray for me.
i'm about to undertake something for me.
details i don't really want to divulge
but maybe in the near future (or maybe if it turns out okay)

but right now, i hope you wish me well.

bye :D

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 17:13.
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extremely super duper uber to the max

Wednesday, April 9

not my best self lately. been trying to make an excuse to be "of better service to all humanity" but jenna doesn't work too well right now. sucker. i've been a bit busy over the last week since we did rush preparations for my sister's 18th. gahhh. she's 18 now. feels like my 18th was only yesterday. demmit.

it went well by the way it was super fun... :))

but now i'm back to my normal self. finding out that i'm probably the only one left unemployed for all seasons. it sucks yo. ohwells. let's just make this a one year vacation, well almost. SUCKERRRRRRRRRRRRR. demmit

anyway, still looking forward to summer. but it's extremely HOTTTTTTTTTTTT this summer. even our AC won't cooperate and in the morning when we wake up it's already super super hot and we're yucky like that. (and we have no choice but to leave the room early rawr)

anyway, i hope i hope i hope I CAN always end up everything on a happy note. PLEASE.

can't. won't.

:(

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 14:01.
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sheer stupidity

Wednesday, April 2

owyez, i'm back. i've been blogging some other place for a while but now i'm back coz things are kinda fixed right now.

why the title, you may ask?

argh.. doesn't need much explanation...

just read the conversation..

April 1
temporararysuperstar calls personfromthepast 200000 times for birthday greeting
but to no avail
coz personfromthepast isn't answering for the longest time temporarysuperstar decides to send an sms instead.

temporarysuperstar: happy birthday! been calling u the whole day but u weren't answering..so i send this instead. happy birthday! :)
(hesitates but sends the sms)

April 2
temporarysuperstar wakes up and checks phone for any reply
but, again, to no avail
personfromthepast seemed to be "out of service"
must be still buzzed from yesterday's drinking session (at least temporarysuperstar thinks so)

but at around 10.22AM
personfromthepast: hey, sorry wasn't able to take ur calls last night, left the phone in my room. had a drinking session with friends and i prepared the food for them. how are you? by the way, thanks!
temporarysuperstar: (noticed that personfromthepast is using an unregistered number)
personfromthepast: didn't have too many guests, but it's okay. my other friends called me -personfromthepast's name
temporarysuperstar: can i reply here? (thinking wow, personfromthepast even used someone else's phone to text me! woohoo!)

personfromthepast: oh, yeah, it's okay. this is my GIRLFRIEND's number.

false hopes, man.
sheesh.

♥XOXO,♥

temporary superstar jenna curtsied on 10:34.
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