JANUARY

Did I start the year right? Haha, I was still pretty busy with school stuffs that time. BUT, of course.. papayag ba akong hindi mag-lakwatsa? Hahaha. January highlights include:

• Victoria Mad Hatter’s Party Reunion – serious, costume party (Cowboy/girl or Indian)…may fashion show pa! haha
• 1^st time to watch Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikale – woot! Sobrang I love it!
• My 22^nd Birthday! – woot! May cake pa rin ako, sorry! Upon request! Haha. Pati place for lunch upon request!
• My little post-celebration with good friends =) – thanks guys! Super saya hangout lang and stuff but it’s all good! Thanks!
• Our STM trip to Bulacan – first time sa actual Steel company blah =) yii! – hehe. We even wore a hard haT! For safety purposes! Ahaha!

FEBRUARY

Love is in the air! Is it really? Haha! School was kinda killing me. Still, lumakwatsa pa rin. Haha. Echoz. All I know is that I was helping Janina with her thesis that time. At ang thesis ko, walang kwenta talaga. Haha. Kaya nag-divert muna ako ng attention sa ibang bagay. Nice. My February highlights:

• My sidetrips with Janina for her thesis – went to Spoofs, Tiendesitas, Mega, etc. to help her with her thesis blah. Yii! Lapit ka na mag-grad kasi nito e!
• Joey’s PROM – Oh my… nag-prom na sila! 3^rd year high school na siyaaa. Ok, that makes me feel kinda old. Heck, not really. Haha.
• Valentine’s Day Date with College friends - This is it! 2 years in a row na to! Parang Single’s day out.. pero ako lang ata single? Hahaha! Ang fun! May studio pic pa talaga kami! Shoutout to Mej, Pauwie and RJ! Next time sama na kayo Charlene, etc!
• Post Business-law Exams Escapades! – haha, to relieve our stress, we go to the mall, dine out, watch a movie (like Ghost Rider haha, napaka-relaxing), or play sa arcade. Ganun yun e! haha. Kanya-kanyang trip yan!
• UP ABAM Seminar (Deal or No Deal Choose Your Business Career) – Wow, we actually went to this seminar as representative of our org. Naks. Kunwari leadership material. Wahaha! Pero it was fun! I learned a lot!
• Trips to Empire East Suntrust for STM – Definitely fun! Kahit mainit sa labas, basta lakwatsa, why not?!

MARCH

Graduation na for other schools (like si Janina) pero ako….busy pa with school EVER. Haha. Vacation mode na mga students, kami slavery pa rin. Wahehe. March highlights:

• Lola Ading’s 90^th birthday – Grabe! She doesn’t look 90. Cool pa rin siya pumorma and super galing pa rin ng memory niya. weeh!
• CEO Forum with Lamoiyan Corporation’s President, Cecilio Pedro – Grabe, bilib talaga ako sa kanya! Crush tuloy siya ni Tart. Hahaha! Nice one! Pero sobra, idol to!
• Arcade escapades with Pauwie! – walang tatalo sa tickets namin!
• ENCHANTED KINGDOM! – Grabe, thank you Papa Don, Pauwie, Mej, Paeng and Bes. You the bomb! J Super saya nito and laugh trip! Sana maulit ulit!!!

APRIL

Finally, summer na! We had a short-lived vacation naman, so I tried to make the most out of it. J Pero, busy pa rin tlga with my thesis that time. No choice e. April highlights:

• Bisita Iglesia with relatives – kahit maligaw-ligaw pa, kyeme lang! go lang ng go! Haha.
• Joey’s 17^th – Grabe! Debut na niya next year, how’s that?
• Yearly ULTRA Holy Week Recollection – of course, spiritual side naman! Still with Mines and the Pedrajas family (nagpapaampon kami e!) Next year ulit!
• STM working days! – the pressure talaga of doing an academic paper for an actual client.. may defense pa! Haha. Pero masaya naman. We get to hang out with other classmates din every now and then Aww.
• Mines’ Grad Recital at St. Scho – Congrats, Mare! Galing-galing! Sosi tong si Mines e.. parecital recital na lang. Pero in fairness, may picture taking at free food. Echoz! Congrats Mines!

MAY

Election time and THESIS/BAP DEFENSE TIME! Crap! Sobrang kaka-pressure to! Stress to the highest level! Isabay pa ang STM stuffs, etc. Masaya, masaya, masaya! Haha. Pero… yun yun e. Nagpunta kong Baguio. (Nilayo sarili sa stress hehe). May:

• Mother’s Day Celeb at Marius Resort – Yes naman, with my relatives sa Mother’s side. Ayos! Kunwari ayaw pa magswimming pero matinding sunburn nakuha naming ni Joey.
• STM Final Touches – STRESS ito! Haha. Pero masaya talaga. Masaya tumambay sa Matcha. AHAHHAA.
• BAGUIO!!! – Yey!! At least natuloy din ito! Super saya! Major bonding talaga.. at may libreng wi-fi sa bahay. Ayos! Hindi nalayo sa technology. Haha. Gusto ko na bumalik! Strawberries!
• Grad Practice @ PICC – Hindi pa rin ata magsink in na THIS IS IT, PUSIT! Haha. Two days to go! Big day! Haha.

JUNE

Weeh! One of the funnest (may word bang ganun?) months of this year Daming eventful things na I’m thankful for. Well, particularly yung GRADUATION yey!!!

• GRADUATION – finally, all my hard work paid off. Napraning pa ako na hindi ako makaka-march dahil sa thesis – pero ayos naman. Nakalusot din! Thank you friends, classmates for all the college memories! And thanks Besp, Janina for coming! To my family shempre for the support! I love you all!
• My Grad Party and Mommy’s Bday Celeb – 2-in-1 celebration na ito Yehey! Salamat sa mga nakapunta! It meant a lot. Eto rin yung reunion ni Pia and Hix Hehe. Kulit. Thank you all!! ahaha.
• Little trip to Carmona, Cavite – went to visit a Tita for her birthday. Tapos sa clubhouse nun village kami..super ganda! May playground so laro pa kami dun! Haha. Feeling bata.
• Start of Jobhunt – Maaga pa lang hanap ng work (asan ako ngayon? Hahaha!) Pero masaya.. may reason para magkita-kita kami nina Vnee, Pia and Tart. Haha!
• 2^nd time to watch Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikale – Yey! Si K Brosas naman ang ZsaZsa.. at bakla tlga! :) pero masaya! SUPER! Thanks mines!!!

JULY

My 1^st month of unemployment and bumhood. But I treated it as a little vacation =) Yey! Still ongoing ang jobhunt.. pero wala lang. enjoy lang! =)

• NEW HAIR! Sorry, vain.
• Janina’s Birthday Treat (plus her “Surprise” video from me and her friends) – Yey! Dinner at Kimono Ken @ Podium. Sosi! hehe. Major catching up.
• Last day at Roche – aww. I miss them already!
• Get together with Pia and Tart – huhu. Miss ko na rin kayo… :(
• Cinemalaya 2007 – We watched TRIBU by Jim Libiran. Super astig. We got the chance to have a pic with him. Incidentally, nanalo siyang Best Picture. Galing kasi! More indie films next year!

AUGUST

2^nd month na of bum-ness. Yey! Haha. Spent more time with my family and some with friends. :)

• Job Fair @ Glorietta – wala lang. ay.. nanood kami ng OUIJA. Katakot!!!
• My inaanak, Bianca’s 7^th birthday – Mala-debut lang naman ang birthday niya. Grabe, 7 na siyaaaaaa…. Lalala.
• Me and Joey tour Greenbelt and Glorietta – talk about freedom :) kaso grabe, dun kami kumain sa may sumabog sa part ng Glorietta. Scary. :(
• Fiesta samin! – Special guest: Tart and Pia :)

SEPTEMBER

Grabe, BER months na! ang bilis naman ng panahon kainis! :p hehe. Festive mode na rin. Bum pa rin (as always) pero I enjoyed the company of my family and friends naman. Bumabawi lang!

• Kikay Slumber Party – Midnight makeup sessions with Tart and Pia. Too bad wala si Vnee! Aww. Next time, okay?
• Joey’s Family Day – Her last one at St. Paul. Grabe… 4^th Year na siya!! Ahuhu
• Jobhunt with Tart – walang kamatayang jobhunt. Haha.
• Pilipinas Circa 1907 – Mines’ first BIG BREAK sa Theater. Galing! Congrats ulit mare! And thanks sa compli tickets Next time ulit ok? Galing galing! Go mare!
• Whattabarx Reunion and Celebration – Registered Nurses (na ulit) sina Cha and Kats! Shempre celeb ulit c/o Kats @ Off the Grill, Timog. Tagay!

OCTOBER

2^nd BER month. And tinatamad na ko bilangan kung pang-ilan siyang bumhood month. Hehe. Maraming happenings din this month. Ayos! Although frustrating ang job situation at times, ok pa rin. Go lang ng go!

• Lola Candeng’s Birthday – We visited her sa Manila (surprise, surprise!). Feeling ko first time ko lang siya nakita. Hehe.
• SLEEPOVER at MEJ’s – Weeeh! After more than a year of promises na magkikita.. nagkita kami. Although biglaan, natuloy pa rin. Super fun and super bonding galore. Thanks, Mej! Next time ulit!
• Shopping Day with Besp – Market! Market! Shopping day. Ayos! Next time ulit besp, but we need more budget haha. Then we had some heart to heart talk sa Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf sa Bonifacio High Street =)
• Daddy’s Birthday – WOOT! Hamberdei Daddy alavyoo!
• SLEEPOVER at BESP NICA’s – Yesss, Buena mano ako sa mansion nila! Haha. I love it! Make up session and non-stop chit chat session with besp =) Love it! Next time ulit (daming next time!) Plus, I wanna “rent” Macky muna! I love your doggeee :)
• Halloween at Ilaya – Kahit kids lang ang required mag-costume, nakisali ako = Goth. Haha. Bakit ba? Dahil diyan, naka-trick or treat din kami! Woohoo!

NOVEMBER

One month before Christmas! Bankrupt galore na ito! Pero sige pa rin! Haha. :)

• Surprise Birthday Party for Mines – Dahil sad siya at busy (kuno hehe), nagprepare ako at ang barx ng surprise get together and party for Mines! In fairness! Maraming food at nakakunchaba namin ang pamilya nia! Thanks! Hamberdei Marianne!! =)
• Tita Didith’s Birthday Bash – Weeh! Nakisali lang! haha
• PASAPRISA Cheering Competition – hindi ako kasali.. sister ko. Haha. Woot! Stage sister ako e. hehe.
• Return to Roche – I delivered the NEVER GIVE UP Shirts they ordered.. and I finally have a picture with Sir Noli! =)
• Reunion with Mej – after how many months? Oh, 1 lang pala. Parang ang tagal na kasi. But I missed you, Mej! Still do. Naks. MUSHY.

DECEMBER

Last month of the year.. last month to make things work. Madami man shitnesses na nangyari this month, all in all masaya pa rin! End the year right naman ang drama ko! Haha.

• SKECHERS Streetdance Battle Year 3 Finals – WOOT! Andun ulit sister ko and Terpsichore from my alma mater, St. Paul. Woot! yun lang. Masaya! Araneta yun and ksama ko sina Nica and Janina. Sulit ito grabe =) Congrats!
• Meeting with Magentas - @ Dencio’s Megamall. Yun yun e. Nagmeet kami to plan for Nica’s Surprise Party =)
• “Unexpected” Get together with HS peeps – Saw Anna Mae and Tin again AFTER 2 YEARS! Yesss! Buhay pa tayo! =) Ganda pa rin natin. HAHAHA!
• Besp Nica’s Surprise Party – 12 AM YO! Thanks Janina for planning and to her friends na nagbigay ng message for the scrapbook. Love you besp! Mwah!
• Blast from the Past: Back to the 70’s, The Whattabarx Christmas Party 2007: Haba ng title! Daming pictures… RETRO ang drama ng barx. Kahit walang games, dami naming pics. Mga pokpok tlga sa camera. Haha. Love you barx!
• CHRISTMAS 2007: Masaya, masaya, masaya = Kumpleto Pasko pag kasama ang pamilya =) Yey!

Weeeh! Overall, I would say that 2007 is a veryyyyy fruitful year. Learned a lot, made some mistakes but still made the most out of every thing :) Looking back, may mga things na nakakalungkot na nag-end up na ganun, may mga chances or opportunities na lumagpas..pero ok lang.. it made me the JENNA na ako ngayon. so, no regrets diba? :) Thanks to everyone who made my 2007 special! Special shoutout to: ~my family: mama, dada, irene and joey. I love you! ~my relatives: mahal ko kayo! ang dami niyo.. :) hehe ~my best friends: nica, joey (shmpre), tart.. sobrang love ko kayo. salamat kasi lagi kayo anjan! ~special mention friends: janina (lamo na, special eklavoo pa rin), rob, kuya rj (paramdam ka!), san, ate jack, jaja. :) salamat sa memories! :) salamat sa lahat. next year ulit. ~my high school barkada, whattabarx: jon, donna, cha, karen, mines, tin, anna mae, kats, cye, at besp nica.. big girls na tayo! sobra! :) hahaha. salamat sa lahat. :) sa 2008 ulit ah? ~my college barkada, kamberks: aspe, cheka, tart, nadine and jimi.. 1 year na tayo hindi nagkikita :( sad. pero alam ko andiyan lang naman kayo. kaya thanks. super! kita kita naman tayo january... bago maging hectic ulit lahat. :) miss you!
~5th year circle of friendships haha: tart, vnee, pia, vickie, earvin! thanks!!! :) super! miss you all! ~my Roche colleagues and bosses :): Sir Noli, Ms. Susan, Ms. Ivic, Sir Francis, Ms. Guia!!!, Ms. Karina, Ms. April, Ms. Honey, Ms. Shella, Ms. Leah, Ms. Abelle, Ms. Theng, Ms. Brenda, Allen shmpre, and mga guards! Thanks for the wonderful experience :D

~college friends: mej, pauwie, charlene, don, rj, chi, pam.. sino pa ba.. baka may nalimutan ako. basta kayo lahat. thanks! sana makalabas tayo na kumpleto na tayo. EK ulet? hehe. miss you all! thanks sa lahat. sa valentines day ulit ok? ~my 5th year classmates and MScM people: iisa-isahin ko ba? basta SA block! yun yun eh. shempre hindi naman tayo makakasurvive kung hindi buo ang SA block. :) big girls at big boys na tayo. working na e. hehe. salamat sa memories! :) ~my high school family: jon, nica, cleo, mhaw, donna, morres, mines, tin, jielene, arianne, aowie, k-an, bog, rae, aicel at sa mga family friends apol, cye, kats, etc. naudlot na naman ang reunion natin. sana bumalik ulit si morres next year tpos TULOY NA REUNION NO? hehe. please? hehe. i miss you! im glad kahit pano nakakausap ko pa isa-isa sa inyo. yung iba galaw-galaw naman! haha. ~extended friends (mga friends of friends): noli boi, dada anton, rexon, ace, jesi, mark (mga boylet ng barx e! haha). tapos, hix, milo, arwan, rea, bogs, catie and kat..dahil nakasama ko rin kayo sa birthday ni nica :) thanks!... friends din ni joey: lindsay, avery and aika.. pati mga team mates niya sa terpsichore na nagha-hi.. sina pam, etc. hello sa inyo. at thanks. :) Waah may nalimutan ba ako? O basta, sa lahat ng mga kaibigan, kapamilya, kapuso, katoto, kabarkada, ka-echoz, kabaklaan sa mundong ibabaw.. ALABSHOO all! I'm looking forward to a great 2008. :) sana maging maganda for all of us!

just when you thought that everything's back to normal

hindi pala. taeeeeee

hindi pa nga tapos yung festive mood ng holiday season ko - uber bad trip na ko. argh. ngayon nagsisink in lahat kasi in a matter of minutes, sunod-sunod na shitnesses ang nangyari

buiset yang GLOBE - pwede bang i-broadcast yang kaabnoyan ng GLOBE TELECOM?! sobrang hassle sila... nagpapaexpect amp!

kasi 1 month ago, nag-inquire ako about sa loyalty rewards nila. kasi every after 2 years, nagkakaron ng free unit ng phone galing sa knila. ngayon, nag-2 years na yung sakin ng dec 23. nung nag-inquire nga ako, sabi sakin ANYTIME pwde mag-avail ng bagong handset. nung pinuntahan sila ng dad ko sa telecom service blah, sabi nila JANUARY 12 daw. ngayon, pnuntahan ulit ng dad ko... WALA NA DAW REWARDS na ganun, REBATE na lang. TAE SILA PAASA! sorry ha, ang babaw man tignan pero WALANG COORDINATION YUNG MGA EMPLEYADO NILA. bibigay-bigay pa sila ng value na mkukuha, units available at date na pwde makuha yun tpos wala na pala? leche. gulo-gulo niyo.

hay. yun lang muna.

actually nabadtrip pa ko sa ibang tao sa mundo.. pero lilipas din to. shmpre bad trip din ako sa isang magaling na tao diyan - kung ayaw mo makipagusap epal ka. hindi ko talaga naiintindihan nangyayari satin! actually dalawang tao kayo. so bahala kayo. sumasakit na ulo ko.


someone please save me... :(

dazed and confused

ok can i just say.. i'm really confused right now. and i guess it would be better to stop reading my blog for the moment coz i'm being all paranoid again.. so sorry.

i'm not really good at figuring you out right now. i'm kinda lost. i don't know where i stand, what's the status and how i should act... but take note, i'm not blaming you ok. no blaming here. just me and my praning self.. i'm sleepy.

too weird and too random

there's nothing much interesting that happened today. as in it's just another random, boring day. well, except for some parts but i'd rather not blog about it coz it might come off as weird. anyway. i'm really bored. i can't even feel any sign of sleepiness in my system yet. ohwell.

anyway.. i think i might be going to shang tomorrow to get the planners i ordered. i don't have money yet so i can't go Christmas shopping like planned. :P

ok tinatamad nko. bukas ko na explain. basta i'm okay.

this is it, pusit

hehe. i haven't blogged for quite sometime (well that's around 2-3 days, i think). our motherboard gave up on us.. but thankfully, we're still able to recover our files. wooot woot for that! :)

anyway.. i've been feeling a whole lotta better since my last few entries. as in. lately, i've been seeing more on the good side of things - which is great. i don't wanna be any bad vibes-sender lalo na it's Christmas noh. :) basta. super gaan sa pakiramdam..lalo na na naiiyak ko na lahat.. nasabi ko na lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa mga taong nakinig sakin. so salamat sa inyo. :) hindi ko makakaya to ng wala kayo, sobra. sana magtuloy-tuloy lang. at kung sumpungin man ako ulit.. salamat sa sinabi niyo sakin na andyan lang kayo para makinig. :)

susme. ang mushy mushy ang aga-aga.

anyway, tpos na yung surprise blah for besp. :) i'm happy na nag-enjoy sha, although napagod din siya. hehehehe. gagawa ako ng next entry for her na lang :) hehe. anyway...i'm back naman to preparations for the christmas party ng barx. excited na ako! :) anyway. yun lang muna. andami pang aasikasuhin for the party. wala pa ko naiisip. so mamaya. this is so random. bow. :)

say hello to more drama

NOT.

okay. i was pretty dramatic yesterday morning. what the hell. yesterday was so full of drama.. kung hindi man sa kin sa ibang tao. Life talaga no. it has its way of bringing you up and down. haha.

ano ba yan. masyadong magulo mundo ng mga tao ngayon.. parang ako. blah blah blah.

aslkvjbdsa;viasdbv. ok halata bang tinatamad na ko.

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bakit ba pakialamera ako? may mga bagay akong naiisip lang naman, pero alam mo yun.. nasasaktan na ako..

alam ko wala nang babasa ng blog ko para masaya... pero, sana.. sana lang try mo naman intindihin ako. kung may sakit man ako na laging moody at oversensitive tulad ng palagay mo, hindi yun "sakit". It's just me. naisip ko before, "take me or leave me". Pero masakit pala pag hindi ka kayang tanggapin dahil sa IKAW. tapos gustong-gusto ka na itapon palayo.. or gustong gusto na lumayo sayo.

naisip ko.. masama ba ako para layuan? may mabigat ba akong nagawa para ganto mangyari sakin? o satin? hindi ko rin alam. pero eto ako eh. hindi ko rin alam. masakit pala talaga.. yung feeling na walang makatanggap sayo.. masakit.

i try reaching out to people but maybe in the wrong way. if it act differently, siguro AKO kasi yun. hindi ko naman pwde baguhin pagiging emosyonal ko. i wanted to be honest at sinasabi ko na nga lahat ng nararamdaman ko... tpos iba pa rin ang dating sa mga tao sa paligid ko. so anong mas maganda...itago sa sarili mo at lumabas sa actions mo? or ilabas mo na lang para tapos na? hindi ko na alam kasi pag tinago ko, i send negative vibes. pag sinabi ko, nababadtrip yung mga tao sakin.. so ano? pakamatay na lang ako?

...i wanna say more.. but this is obviously emotional roadkill.

new beginnings

cheers to brand new day. :)

i woke up earlier than usual today.. so i ended up watching 6:30 AM shows on ETC. haha. anyway... my mom told me that she's heading to the parlor later.. but she's not yet sure, but still i'm looking forward to that. haha..

i want to thank nica and tart for keeping me sane. :) thank you for being there for me and for understanding me. haha i gave u my link na guys, read this na! ahhaha.. i realized that i'm soooo lucky to have them both as friends. (and best ones at that). haha. i got to talk to tart again yesty.. ako naman sinermonan niya after ko siyang sermonan last week. kahit nasungitan ko sha and naging bitchy ako sa knya for the last few months, i'm thankful we're ok now. :) hehe. nakakainis, i feel like i have to come up with a good blog entry for her kasi ang mushy ng testimonial nia sa akin sa friendster. haha :) super mushy! haha. but yeah. thank you tart for constantly being there...sabi mo nga may instant hotline ako sayo. ikaw rin, ok? hahaha.

she lectured on new beginnings yesterday, hence my blog title today. (sermon nga! haha).. and said na i should just learn to let go of things na nakakagulo lang sakin.. and start anew ika nga. basta. i'm so glad i get to talk to these people para maclear ang mind ko off myself. haha.

i'm giving myself a break :) i don't need anyone to GIVE ME A BREAK - i'll give that to me. I'm sending off negative vibes - au revoir to you! :) haha. i'm looking forward to better days and a great holiday season.. and if you wanna join me, sure! if not, suit yourself. :)

"and in this moment i am happy" - Incubus



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I am soooo loving this song right now..

"For A Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic"

Just talk yourself up
And tear yourself down
You've hit your one wall
Now find a way around
Well what's the problem?
You've got a lot of nerve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

I'm not so naive
My sorry eyes can see
The way you fight shy
Of almost everything
Well, if you give up
You'll get what you deserve

So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
So what did you think I would say?
No you can't run away, no you can't run away
You wouldn't

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
You threw it away

You were finished long before
We had even seen the start
Why don't you stand up, be a man about it?
Fight with your bare hands about it now

I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay well did you
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away
I never wanted to say this
You never wanted to stay
I put my faith in you, so much faith
And then you just threw it away


download niyo rin.. it's pretty interesting :)


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okay bye for now :)

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

okay, give me a chance to blog before i rest tonight. hahaha. i love this day. too many happenings, too many realizations and too many blog entries, don't cha think?

i love it.

:) hahaha...

yun lang. natatawa lang ako. masama bang tumawa? masarap maging invisible! ahahaha. ok. sige. bukas gusto ko na pmunta sa parlor nasasaktan nko sa bangs ko. haha ayaw niya magcooperate. parang ikaw. :))

hehehe.

ok, imma sleep now. =)

i'm loving the "silence" wahahahahahahaha. ok im gonna shut up na. :)

nalimutan ko na nga ba?

nalimutan ko na nga ba maging manhid? hehe siguro out of my will to be a better person nawala na sistema ko. so ngayon hindi ko alam exactly.

teka, e bakit ba binabasa mo pa blog ko ha? bahala ka nga. tapos magsstatus ka pa sa ym? what's the point diba? hindi na nga ako nagpapakita eh. tae. ay, cge tutal nagbblog din pala ako cge sa ym na lang. alam mo, ikaw, oo ikaw, alam kong binabasa mo na naman bago kong entry at this moment.. tpos magsstatus ka na naman.. etc. nakakapagod. IKAW UMUUBOS NG PASENSIYA MO. hindi ako. wala na nga akong gnagawa ako pa rin ang dahilan? ay sus. aabutin tayo ng next christmas.

and THANK YOU for your vocabulary lessons. i looked it up in the dictionary.

I quote the Merriam Webster Dictionary Online.

SPACE

1: a period of time; also : its duration
2 a: a limited extent in one, two, or three dimensions : distance, area, volume
b: an extent set apart or available
c: the distance from other people or things that a person needs in order to remain comfortable
3: one of the degrees between or above or below the lines of a musical staff — compare line
4 a: a boundless three-dimensional extent in which objects and events occur and have relative position and direction
b: physical space independent of what occupies it —called also absolute space
5: the region beyond the earth's atmosphere or beyond the solar system
6 a: a blank area separating words or lines
b: material used to produce such blank area; especially : a piece of type less than one en in width
7: a set of mathematical elements and especially of abstractions of all the points on a line, in a plane, or in physical space; especially : a set of mathematical entities with a set of axioms of geometric character — compare metric space, topological space, vector space
8 a: linage
b: broadcast time available especially to advertisers
9: accommodations on a public vehicle
10 a: the opportunity to assert or experience one's identity or needs freely
b: an opportunity for privacy or time to oneself

YOU SEE, I DO MY OWN RESEARCH TOO. so yeah. you see, THIS BLOG = MY BLOG = MY PERSONAL SPACE. if you want space, why read my blog in the first place ha? i don't get it. tapos you'll be all parinig in ym? now that's something!

I'M JENNA - YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME. THINK AGAIN. THIS TIME, YOU'RE PUSHING MY LIMIT. SO BETTER STOP. I'M GIVING YOU YOUR FREAKIN' SPACE SO GET IT.


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anyway, on a positive note, excited na ako mag-friday. :) kasi i will hang out with my 3rd yr hs buddies. secret lang natin. haha. weeh. hay. pero i miss you more. kahit inaaway mo ko ngayon. leche. gaya-gaya ka, hindi ako nagparamdam, hindi ka rin nagparamdam ahahahaha. :) maaga si joey ngayon sa bahay at malapit na niya i-hoard ang pc. and i'll be doing something hahhaa. :) whatever. yun lang.

de-cluttering

not only am i cleaning the house today... im de-cluttering my life. i've been on this positive-cheery-optimistic self since last week. and i dunno if it's making any difference. haha. but yeah! i feel better... than before. :) hehe.

i miss my friends. i'm glad that every now and then i still get to talk to some of them and do major updates.. and sabi nga nila diba... you only need those friends who prove that they need you in their lives. narealize ko yan. so if people push you away.. it only means they don't need you. and you shouldn't be needing that either.

anyway, i remember someone asking me (way way back) to come up with an entry that would describe what a best friend is. haha. i found the draft of that blog entry kasi and i never got to finish it. it was still on its first sentence. how nice. but now if u ask me.. siguro when a friend is your best friend, you just know. yun lang. i can never fully define it but yeah. :)

anyway, it's Christmas season again.. and it's a time for bankruptcy in my case! hahaha. still no work.. so i'm pushing my atm limits. haha. kidding. anyway, I'm excited for Christmas.. well, sort of. so yah, i've started my Christmas shopping but I still have several left - like for my family. haha which sucks since I have to get out of the house ALONE to buy them gifts. I wonder when that will be. :)

we're still redecorating our house right now. im in front of the computer right now, blogging but at the same time, cleaning out the cabinets, etc and containers in front of me. haha. super daming clutter. wala lang. my dad said mag-garage sale na daw kami. yes! finally!!! kaya ininform ko agad si besp. hehe kasi siya nag-influence sakin to let go of things :) hehehe. ayos! so yun. inform ko na lang kayo. baka gusto nio bumili ng luman ref. hahaha :)

hmmm. naiinspire ako magblog ulit. kasi nakikita ko siya ulit as an outlet to release my thoughts and feelings. sana WAG kontrahin diba? hmmm. i was reading my blog entries from 2002-2003.. grabe. i was very PERKY. haha. no, i was blogging talaga on a regular basis kasi. tapos ang drama ko pa! grabe. pero in fairness magaganda entries ko. post ko ulit yung pinakamaganda. hahaha. or basahin na lang sa archives. haha. sobra. i've been rejected for too many times na rin pala in the past.. issue! haha. nakakatuwa lang magbasa.. every now and then nakakalungkot pa rin pala balikan yung mga nangyari. kaya gusto kong mabasa ulit mga entries ko. hahahaha. :) mushy.

anyway. ill TRY to start today. blogging keeps me sane since besp is away... and yeah. she's the one i trust na makikinig sakin. like this blog. hindi tao hindi hayop nakikinig?>! haha ok, im blabbing na.

:))

ok. cge mamaya ulit. pag tinamaan ako ng need to blog. hahaha :))

bato bato sa langit ang tamaan wag magalit

WHATEVER. HINDI YUN ANG POINT KO.

CLEAN SLATE - START ANEW.

SIGURO KASI HINDI PA TAYO "FRIENDS LIKE THAT". CGURO HINDI PA TAYO MAGKAKILALA. AT SIGURO HINDI MO PA AKO TANGGAP. YUN LANG. AT OO NGA PALA, HINDI MO AKO BEST FRIEND E.

SO, SIGE SAYONG-SAYO NA YANG SPACE NA YAN. GUSTO MO PATI OUTER SPACE IBIGAY KO SAYO.

NAKAKAPAGOD.

maglilinis na lang ako ng bahay.

ANG AKIN LANG

...alisin mo yung stereotype or generalization mo sakin.

...let's start on a clean slate.


...to hell with 'needing space', we don't need that.

...just try seeing me in a different light. YUN LANG.

give me a break

come on! i say i'm disheartened and then you say that's it?! that's soooo whatever!

i wish you would have taken the time to try to understand where I'm coming from. you see, I don't wanna cause stress - and I NEVER felt that stress because of you.So now I know...

then, here's the space. TAKE IT.

HOPING FOR THE BEST

i only wanted to make things special..

... i dont wanna be all selfish and take all the credit..

..i dont wanna act like a bitch.

..i dont want to make you feel that i do not appreciate whatever you just thought of.

BUT

..i didnt like it when you said my idea was UGLY. or at least ur reaction said a lot about it.

...i didnt like the feeling of being like a third wheel or being just an outsider to that plan...

coz come to think of it... I WANTED THIS BADLY TOO. and i can't think of anything else to do..


YOU HAVE DISHEARTENED ME.

i hate you how you're making me feel.

all mixed up

i swear i am the most unpredictable person in the planet right now. last week was a rollercoaster ride of emotions.. since i was very weird (as if that's something new). and right now i'm this nervous bundle of positive energy waiting to come alive. whatev. im not making sense. it's 2 in the morning and i still haven't slept. sleep. bad. shit.

anyway

i wanted to blog since last night but i was really sleepy when we got home from araneta so i decided to snooze anyway.

ok. so last night was weird. definitely weird. well, at least it wasn't as weird as i had expected it to be earlier last week.. but yeah. i came to tart for rescue. so thank you. and thank you besp for understanding. and for the time. and janina for the chance. owyeah. whatev.

is three really a crowd?

i don't know. i'm not sure. i didn't feel that for the longest time and lately, i do feel it. and it's bad. it's like a potential source for negative energy. or something. but i know i shouldnt feel that way. but it sucks. and sometimes i really want to drown in self pity but i know it wouldn't do me any good at all so i stop and think.. and stop. ok. whatever.

hay. i can't put it into words directly but i feel left out. i know it may be my fault since i've done some pushing/shoving other people away acts lately.. and this may be the consequence. but it sucks when it's in your face. i don't want to be misunderstood. i'm not saying that something's wrong with other people - probably the problem's me pa nga. but... i dunno. i don't want to say anything wrong... or no., i don't want to say the wrong words in the process of explaining the right things. i really suck in expressing myself lately. boohoo.

but yeah, i just needed to let it out. thanks avery, or vera.

if you read this and you have questions please talk to me, you know i need you. thank you.

MY LIFE SOUNDTRACK

I've been seeing this for the longest time but tonight's the only time i got super duper bored (enough) to answer this. hahaha. So yeah. Pardon my boredom. I got this from my cousin, Maxine. Thanks dahlin' :)

Soundtrack of your life!

Set your player to shuffle, and type down the song that comes on! :D No cheating! Add a part of the lyrics of the song if you want. ;)


Opening Credits: Me Against the Music – Britney Spears and Madonna (oo na, may Britney ako sa pc.hehe) à in fairness pwde! Hahaha.

“If you really wanna battle, saddle up and get your rhythm/ Tryin’ to hit it,
you could die/ In a minute I’m a take a you on, I’m a take a you on” (Sorry
naman, warfreak?)

Waking Up: You Did It Again – Kylie Minogue

“You know it’s all in your head, you better put that business to bed, what you
see nobody sees it only brings you to your knees” (What did I do?)

Average Day: I Want To Know What Love Is – Tina Arena (okaayyy, at least hindi Sarah Geronimo wahahah)

“Lord help me to be strong on this road I travel on, when I’m lost and lonely,
find me..” (oha, inspirational)

First Date: Wild, Wild West – Will Smith

“We’re goin’ straight to the wild, wild west..” (makes no sense. Wild? No
way.hahaha)

Falling in Love: Big Girls Don’t Cry - Fergie

“I hope you know, I hope you know that this has nothing to do with you. It’s
personal, myself and I, we’ve got some straightenin’ out to do” (Ironic
much?)

Love Scene: Sweet Child of Mine – Sheryl Crow

“Now and then when I see her face she takes me away to that special place. And
if I stared too long I’d probably break down and cry’ (?)

Fight Scene: Free Your Mind – En Vogue (love it!)

“Why oh why must it be this way? Before you can read me you gotta learn how to
see me. Free your mind and the rest will follow, be color blind, don’t be so
shallow” (Yun eh, daanin sa angas!)

Breaking Up: Hanggang Ngayon - Kyla

“Wag mong limutin pag-ibig sa’kin na iyong pinadama. Pintig ng puso wag mong
itago sa isang kahapon sana’y magbalik.” (AMP! Break up pa lang recon agad
gusto!)

Getting Back Together: Be Without You – Mary J. Blige (marunong pumili mp3 ha)

“Too strong for too long (and I can’t be without you baby), And I’ll be waiting
up until you get home (coz I can’t sleep without you baby)”

Secret Love: Crush – Mandy Moore

“You know everything that I’m afraid of, you do everything I wish I did.
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you” (sakto sapul)

Life's Okay: Somewhere Over the Rainbow – Katharine McPhee

“Somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue. And the dreams that you dare to
dream really do come true”

Mental Breakdown: I’m In Luv (Wit a Stripper) – T-Pain ft. Mike Jones

“I can’t lie, I must admit..I’m in love with a stripper.” (‘Nuf said?)

Driving: We Be Burnin’ – Sean Paul

“We be burnin’ not concernin’ what nobody wanna say. We be earnin’ dollars
turning ‘cause we mind de pon we pay.” (And I can hear me in the background
saying WOOT WOOT)

Learning A Lesson: Thank U – Alanis Morissette

“The moment I let go of it was the moment I got more than I could handle.”

Deep Thought: Cry Me a River – Justin Timberlake

“You don’t have to say what you did, I already know, I found out from him. Now
there’s just no chance for you and me, there’ll never be and don’t it make you
sad about it” (masyado!)

Flashback: How Do You Keep The Music Playing – James Ingram and Patti Austin

“And since we know we’re always changing, how can it be the same?” (aww I love
this song!)

Partying: I Don’t Need a Man – The Pussycat Dolls (yesss)

“I don’t need a man to make it happen, I get off being free. I don’t need a man
to make me feel good, I get off doing my thing.” (You go, girl!)

Happy Dance: It’s Like That – Mariah Carey

“Cuz it’s my night/ No stress, no fights/ I’m leaving it all behing/ No tears,
no time to cry/ Just makin’ the most of life” (Right on!)

Long Night Alone: Hot Stuff – Pussycat Dolls

“Looking for some hot stuff, baby, this evening. I want some hot stuff, baby,
tonight.” (wahahahhahahaha long night alone)

Regretting: Foolish Games - Jewel

“Well in case you failed to notice, In case you failed to see. This is my heart
bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees.”

Death Scene: Where Is The Love – Black Eyed Peas

“People killin’, people dyin’, children hurt and you hear ‘em cryin. Can you
practice what you preach, or will you turn the other cheek? Father, Father,
Father, help us, send us some guidance from above. Coz people got me, got me
questionin’.. where is the love?”

Closing Credits: Everywhere – Michelle Branch

“Coz you’re everywhere to me, and when I catch my breath it’s you I breathe.
You’re everything I know that makes me believe. I’m not alone. You’re in
everyone I see, so tell me, do you see me?” (medyo creepy)

So yeah, pardon my boredom – and if you feel the same, c’mon. ;)