I KNEW IT.. THE MUSIC FROM YESTERDAY WILL STOP... IT HAS STOPPED...



Like what i promised, i made the music stop.

No more promises of waiting for your return, and that promise to offer whatever we "had" even after that long time (of waiting).

Enough of the questions of the what-might-have-beens and what-ifs. I've left that distant memory of you looking at me worriedly, as if you really, really care...

I'll stop the feeling of aggravation towards that girl. I guess I should be happy for you instead. Really happy.

Today marks the beginning of a new chapter, and the end of a hopeful but unfateful stage in this lifetime.

My music has stopped. That song has ended. Our melody is over.


Unfortunately, it wasn't the FIRST song. The tune was similar, but the lyrics and the person ain't the same. This is SONG # 2, and it was meant for you.

Too bad it's over.


...or maybe, it never started playing in the first place.

PARA SA TAONG PAG-AARI NA YATA NG ISANG MANOK

tulak ng bibig, kabig ng dibdib
tulak ng bibig, kabig ng dibdib

hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa iyo
paikot-ikot na nalilito o ba't ganito
pag gising sa umaga ikaw ang nasa isip
pagtulog sa gabi laman ng panaginip
mahal ba kita o ano ewan ko

hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa iyo
simula ng makilala hindi maipinta sa mata
magdamag ang kwentuhan, kulitan, tawanan
hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ngayon lang
kung kelan ang puso ko ay maselan

hindi mo lang alam takot lang akong masaktan
iniingatan lang aking puso
kung maibibigay ko lang ang sinasabi mo
di na sana tayo magkakaganito
pasensya ka na hanggang dito lang muna tayo

hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa iyo
paikot-ikot na nalilito ba't ganito
urong-sulong yan ang paborito
lilitaw-lulubog, tanong mo kahit sino
pakisabi na lang ano ba talaga and gusto mong gawin ko

hindi mo lang alam takot lang akong masaktan
iniingatan lang aking puso
kung maibibigay ko lang ang sinasabi mo
di na sana tayo magkakaganito
pasensya ka na hanggang dito lang muna tayo

pakiusap lang wag mo na akong
tingnan ng ganyannakakatunaw ang iyong tingin
hinay hinay ka lang mahina ang kalaban
at baka di na maiwasang mahulog ng tuluyan...

hindi mo lang alam takot lang akong masaktan
iniingatan lang aking puso
kung maibibigay ko lang ang sinasabi mo
di na sana tayo magkakaganito
pasensya ka na hanggang dito lang muna tayo

tulak ng bibig kabig ng dibdib..

Ang love, hindi tulad ng pera na natutumbasan...

Na pag sobra, sinusuklian...



Pero lam mo ba kung san sila nagkatulad?



Simple lang,


KAPAG DI TOTOO, DI DAPAT TINATANGGAP.

my desire to blog: mar 8, 2007. 6:45 pm. Telengtan hall. ua&p

PLANNING AHEAD: does it work?

I'm in a daze right after this friggin' (but note: inspiring and good!) talk from Mr. Cecilio Pedro, CEO and President of Lamoiyan Corporation. In case you don't know, they are the makers of Hapee Toothpaste, the first ever Filipino-produced toothpaste in the country. Anyway, it basically went about what to do right after college. Try reading my Friendster profile and you'll see: What do I want to do? Ask me again, maybe tomorrow. :)

Plan. Start today. That's what he said. the question is: What do you want? Thoughts started flooding (TRULY) my mind. I had too many wants. Music. Fashion. Literature. Restaurants. Work for a good company. Help in the family business. Own my own business. And MORE. Yes, I may know what I want, but will these get me through my whole future? The truth is, I don't know what I want to do - and it sucks.

Knowing that I'm about to graduate in 3 months made me feel exited and VERY scared at the same time. I don't know what to do. The words "MAYBE NEXT TIME" is flashed when I'm adkrf to think about my future career. Which scares me. It makes me not want to graduate.

However, I wish I could just sleep and wake up having slept through the next few months. Then it would be June 2 (read: Graduation Day). But, come to think of it, if that happens, I'll be closer to my FEAR. What will happen after June 2? Do I work? Do I play? Do I whatever?

You see, I'm not getting any younger. But hey, I'm not old!! And I should get started with all the planning and stuffs. but planning scares me. and well. I dunno.

MAYBE YOU CAN ASK ME AGAIN TOMORROW.