i promised to myself that the music will stop
my desire to blog: 11 December 2006, car, on my way to work, 8:50 AM (I’m late!)
EVE N THE NIGHT, IT (STILL) ONLY REMINDS ME OF YOU
Tonight, it will be the “official” 4th year anniversary of our going separate ways.
You’ve made me cry for far too long.
Even until now, if by chance I hear THAT song.
I close my eyes and remember that exact moment when you sang. I tried to look straight into your eyes, but you never looked back.
Will I ever know what and how you felt for me that night?
Will I ever be able to tell you how you were able to make my heart skip a whole lot of beats?
Why did you sing THAT song THAT night?
…especially when you feel know had an idea that I still had feelings for you?
I was frail.
I was still in love.
In a heartbeat, I could and would run back to you if you asked me to.
“I was a fool to believe…
I was too blind to see…”
I can still see your face, eyes, and faint smile as you sang…
You made my cry for far too long.
“Can’t you see?”
HOW COULD I EVER LET YOU GO?
IS IT TOO LATE TO LET YOU KNOW?
Then the music stops.
Jenna aka twisted_angel_xxiii
Nov. 23, 2002 – Dec. 11, 2002