i promised to myself that the music will stop

my desire to blog: 11 December 2006, car, on my way to work, 8:50 AM (I’m late!)

EVE N THE NIGHT, IT (STILL) ONLY REMINDS ME OF YOU

Tonight, it will be the “official” 4th year anniversary of our going separate ways.
You’ve made me cry for far too long.

Even until now, if by chance I hear THAT song.

I close my eyes and remember that exact moment when you sang. I tried to look straight into your eyes, but you never looked back.

Will I ever know what and how you felt for me that night?
Will I ever be able to tell you how you were able to make my heart skip a whole lot of beats?

Why did you sing THAT song THAT night?
…especially when you feel know had an idea that I still had feelings for you?

I was frail.
I was still in love.
In a heartbeat, I could and would run back to you if you asked me to.

“I was a fool to believe…
I was too blind to see…”

Please stop..
I can still see your face, eyes, and faint smile as you sang…

You made my cry for far too long.

“Can’t you see?”

HOW COULD I EVER LET YOU GO?
IS IT TOO LATE TO LET YOU KNOW?






Then the music stops.



In memoriam
Jenna aka twisted_angel_xxiii
Nov. 23, 2002 – Dec. 11, 2002

FRIENDSTER SURVEYS.. HEHE..

SURVEY 1:
: 1. Would you marry for money?.. NOPE
2. Have you had braces?..NOPE
3. Could you live without a computer?..HMMMM LEMME THINK
4. If you could live in any past time period,where would it be?.. 50S COZ OF THE CLOTHES. AND MAYBE 80SHEHE
5. Do you drink enough water?.. HEHE ID LIKE TO THINK I DO
6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take'em off?.. TAKE EM OFF!
7. What are your favorite fruits?.. MANGO BANANA STRAWBERRY!
8. What is your favorite place to visit?.. MALL IF I HAVE MOOLAH
9. Are you photogenic?.. HAHA I DUNNO
10. Do you dream in color or black and white?.. COLOR! HAHA PERO I DONT USUALLYREMEMBER MY DREAMS E
11. Why do you take survey??.. IM BORED
12. Do you drink alcohol?.. HMMM NDI SOBRA
13. What is the most beautiful language?.. SPANISH AND FILIPINO JOKE! HAHA
14. Do you like being kissed when you areasleep?.. HEHE AWWWW :)
15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise orsunset?..SUNSET
16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrsold?..HEHE NOPE I DONT WANNA GROW OLD NGAE
17. Is a flat stomach important to you?..
19. When you watch movies at home, do youlike the lights switched on or off?.. OFF
20. Do you believe in magic?.. HEHE DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC MAGICMAGIC
22. Do you like to watch cartoons?.. YUP
23. At what age did you find out that SantaClaus wasn't real?.. HAHA CANT REMEMBER
24. Do you write poems?.. USED TO
25. Do you snore?.. HAHA YEAH PAG SUPER STRESSED TLGA
26. You sleep more on your back, front,orsides?.. FRONT OR SIDE
27. Would you rather have a poodle or arottweiler?.. SHIHTZU
28. Are you basically a happy person?.. YEAH
29. Are you tired?.. SUPER
30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?.. HEHE TODAY NOT YET
32. How many landline/cellphones do youhave in your house?.. MRAMI E.
33. Do you get along with your parents?.. YEAH MOST OF THE TIME
34. Do u smoke?.. NOPE
35. Do you have a kitty?.. NO
36. Have you ever had a birthday party?. YES, EVEN UP TO MY 21ST NYAHAHA
37. What do you do when you're sad?.. HEHE. GO TO THE MALL
38. What do you need most now?.. CLOTHES. HEEHEE
39. What song are you listening to now?.. NONE
40.what are you craving right now?.. KFC!

SURVEY 2

: Do you watch the Gilmore Girls?* nope
Have you ever enjoyed listening to JackJohnson?* hmmm who is he?
Have you ever seen or enjoyed watching theO.C.?* ive seen it
Do you have one or more Britney SpearsC.D.?* yes
Which radio stations are your favorites?* hmm wave or magic
Are you a Lost fanatic?* nope

[[Be honest]]
Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in yourlibrary?* no
Queen?* no
Alanis Morissette?* yes
Do you watch Family Guy regularly?* nope
King of the Hill?* nope

[[Admit it]]
Do you read trashy romance novels often?* nope
Do you really work out every day?* no
Have you ever eaten an entire pint, or moreicecream by yourself?* pint, ata
Have you ever eaten nothing but junk food foraweek straight?* nope
Do u shower every single day?* yes
Do you ever forget to give Christmas/birthdaypresents?* yes hehe
Do you sing obnoxiously in the car whenyou'redriving alone?* no
Do you sing obnoxiously in the shower whennoone's home?* yes
Have you ever watched a little kid's show when youwere over 12?* yes
Have you ever looked forward to going toschool?* yes

[[The Necessary Love Questions That Aren'tSoNecessary]]
Have you ever pretended your crush was withyouwhen they weren't?* yes
Did you draw pictures for your first crush backinelementary school?* no
Have you ever liked a girl/boy but didnt askher/himout because you were afraid?* yes
Have you ever written a poem/story aboutyour lovelife?* hell yeah
Have you ever spent over an hour thinkingaboutnothing but your crush?* yes
Have you ever liked someone solely for theirappearance?* yes

[[The Questions You Love: Completely andUtterlyPointless Ones]]
Do you eat all the servings in the food cupson adaily basis?* nope
Are you ever a freak about cleanliness ororganization?* sometimes
Have you ever been to South America orAfrica?* no
Do you know how to knit?* yes
Do you have a cell phone or iPod with a patternedcover?* not yet!! haha
Have you ever written love song lyrics yourselfandput them in your profile?* nopee
Do you keep a diary or journal online?* yes
When you open your closet, what is the dominantcolor of your closet?* beige

[[Truly Unusual This or That Questions]]
Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?* baskin robbins
America or Canada* canadaPhysics or chemistry?* chemistry
Earphones or headphones?* earphones
pink or teal?* pink
Earrings or a ring?* earrings
Commitment or casual dating?* commitment
Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings* harry potter na lang
Fly or road trip?* road trip
Starbucks or Caribou?* starbucks

[[Another Wave of Random Questions]]
What is your favorite Disney movie?* beauty and the beast, or nemo! ewan! mdami!lahat ng disney princess movies hehe
How much jewelry do you own?* mdami hehe
Have you ever bought clothing at sears?* nope

survey 3

FIRST SCHOOL:= HUMPTY DUMPTY KINDERGARTEN SCHOOL
FIRST CELL PHONE:= NOKIA 5110 NA YELLOW!! YEAH!!
FIRST PET:= C CINDY THE CAT
FIRST BIG TRIP:= HAHA. LAST WEEK, SA BULACAN. AHAHA
FIRST FIGHT:= HMM CANT REMEMBER
FIRST CELEBRITY CRUSH:= HAHA I CANT REMEMBER I SWEAR..
FIRST JOB:= HAHA. JOB BA PAG INTERN?
FIRST FRIENDSTER FRIEND:= CANT REMEMBER. MEMORY NA ITO!

EVERYONE HAS THEIR LASTS....
LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED:= MINES ATA OR DUNZ
LAST CAR RIDE:= NUN FRIDAY NIGHT HAHAH!
LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:= HHE.. CANT RMEMBER LAST WEEK ATA.
LAST FOOD YOU ATE:= FISHIE
LAST ITEM BOUGHT:= MAGAZINE :)
LAST PHONE CALL:= IKAW
LAST THING YOU TOUCHED:= KEYBOARD
LAST TIME AT THE MALL:= FRIDAY
LAST TIME YOU WERE EXCITED FORSOMETHING:= HAHA. NUN FRIDAY! KASI PARTY NIMINESIPIE!
LAST PERSON YOU SAW:= JOEY
LAST PERSON THAT BROKE YOUR HEART:= HIHI
LAST TIME YOU WERE REALLY HONESTLY HAPPY?:= HMMMM FRIDAY? :)

it's been a while.. (again)

hey hey...its been 10000 years since my last entry. haha. ive been very busy, erm, lazy to update my blogspot, although i've promise to myself (time and again) that i really want to keep this as updated as possible. however, thanks to the busy-ness we have both at school and work, i failed to do so. haha.

kailangan may intro? oh well. :)

anyway, like what i said in my previous entry... ive been working na! haha. i'm currently working for Roche Philippines.. and in case that doesnt sound familiar, they are the ones who distribute Xenical and Valium here in the country (among others).. anyway. it's not so bad. in the project i'm working for, I need to come up with an internal branding proposal (marketing plan) for them. that's my thesis. whew. i got to present my proposal already and i have to start from scratch again coz I have to change my framework and methodology. lalala. that sucks.

anyway... what else.. im sooooo looking forward to vacation, and Christmas, although I have no moolah left coz I "accidentally" went on a shopping spree last week (I think), but at least I bought stuffs for me and some for others. ahha. labo. anyway... I'm not at home rght now. If you notice, i only blog.. (religiously) when I'm out. so there.

anyway, I have this quote to share.. which s so true!!!! ahha. and that ends my so-called update.



PS: I miss my friends. :( I love you guys! You know who u are :)


QUOTE FOR TODAY:
"I nod. Looking at the way you hesitated to take my hand, resting so near yours. I know you're already gone. I will make it easy for the both of us, I tell myself. I will forget the feel of your hands on my skin. I will smile and tell you that I'm happy for you because that's what you want to hear and that's what I want to believe. I will hot hope you will be back soon nor say that I wish I was going with you. Instead, I will keep in mind that there is nothing between us anymore. It's just that the coffee is too warm, and I am so cold.. "
- Excerpt from A Warm Cup